2nd day of work!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
haha. back from my 2nd day of work. haha. same routine as yest. jus tt today was more at ease.. plus i didn't go v early so didn't haf a lot of lag time. plus lunch time i played badminton w marian.. so didn't haf to eat alone or sth. haha. yep.. den juniors around today. wasn't as pathetic as yest.. bt tmr renbin nt gng. so i will be alone. bt still. there'll be some juniors who will be gng for their matches. so nt tt bad(: haha.yep. today more interesting stuff coz gt doubles. n there's this under 12 category. haha.. den got one boys pair n one gals pair super cute! they didn't noe how to play e game proper.so they didn't noe where to stand. e gals totally didn't noe how to count e points. haha. den e boys team quite funny. got one boy. quite short n a bit round:P haha. den he kena tapped by his opponent. n his tears immediately welled up n his coach requested for break. haha. den e boy who tapped him immediately appeared quite scared. n came to ask me whether got foul anot. hahahahaha. den i told him nv bt got him to apologise. haha. he quite cute. he n his partner. he called terrence n his partner bryan. haha. den tt bryan's racket over e net once. bt i jus gave him e point. haha. coz they still young. plus think early rounds dun need to be so strict. hee. i noe aren't tt fair sometimes:P haha. yep. n i told him during e break between e 2 games. haha. told him he can't do tt. den tt terrence went, "neh, told u! haha" hahahaha. so cute lo they all! haha. n i became like auntie like tt. keep directing e 2 boys where to stand. n tt's wen i realised noe-ing who is who is quite impt! coz tt's e only way i can get them to stand at e right place. if nt i jus keep "you you you" they also dunno who m i referring to. haha.den e gals even cuter! only 8 years old. one called grace n e other charmine. hahahaha. they super small. den they kena 21-1, 21-0.. haha. think they wanted to serve. bt they didn't get e point. so i can't let them serve. den e other pair(older n got trg) weren't really v nice. coz they didn't like rally w them, jus kept killing them w smashes. tho e smashes were like softer than wat they could haf hit. haha. they damn cute. wen i saw tt they dunno how to play(coz some ppl small size bt can play de wor). haha. i immediately asked to see who is who. in e end it became useful. nt to tell them where to stand. bt to tell them to pass e ball over to their opponent. haha. i wanted to take photos w them. bt haha. didn't in e end. super cute! hahaha. jus realised little gals w e name "grace" all seem quite cute. or can say i quite "fated" w these ppl. my junior grace also like slightly closer to me than e rest of her batch gals.. haha. other than charlene. haha. she's such an idiotic gal wen she first came in n none of us liked her! coz she wanted to join volleyball bt too bad. she could play bmt. haha. den she AP-ed us initially! bt eventually she became a good gal. nt v guai1 tt type. bt at least comes for trg.. haha. n she can play rather well. n she seems a likely person to be e captain wen her batch reaches year3. haha. yep. always squabble w her n treat her to stuff:P hee.yep. n today's matches were more well-played than yest's. some e fight was quite strong. n i finally saw tt doubles' "instinct".. haha. in soccer. there's this striker instinct. n i saw something like tt in bmt. maybe nt instinct. bt it's jus v doubles play. v unique n obvious. n i saw how noob we were. coz jaslin played w her nanhua friend. n jaslin is a rather good singles player n can play doubles nt too badly also. bt wen i saw her opponents stroke. i immediately knew she unlikely to lose. coz she dun play e game like a doubles player.. so far i haven't seen anyone who play like a doubles player yet. maybe yuqing? joy no impression. maybe qimin ba. e rest dun play e doubles game. they LOB! it's like so taboo in doubles.. i mean unless u really wan to clear e ball. n e whack. maybe wat RV shuttlers lack is tt power ba. i saw e "piak piak" sound e ball makes wen hit by e racket n saw e way they flew. e power. e speed. i jus could more or less predict who will win. coz there's this doubles characteristics? haha. yep.. n like saw many of lizhu n mine's shadows. also kena smashed n tapped by ppl. n e game ends super fast. more or less like a bye for ppl. haha. yep. n even tho i can hit e shuttle better than normal ppl do. i knew tt i'm still far from exceling as a bmt player. haha. yep. i realised i dun use a lot of my wrist wen playing bmt. i think i use a lot of strength ba. arm power? haha. yep.. n e way i move. e speed. e way i play la. n maybe jus lack tt fighting spirit. i only noe i wan to win. bt i dun think of how i can win. or how i can train to make myself win. tt's why tho i turned up regularly from trg. i didn't improve to be a strong player. yep. today saw how a guy leaped n stretched all e way to return a drop shot wen he expected a smash. tt kind of i thot they haf lost tt point bt he jus suddenly leaped n STRETCHED so hard tt he managed to get it! tt kind of fighting spirit really was WOW! n yest saw a boy also. his opponent also could play better than him by a lot. bt he jus kept chionging n chionging. tho he lost. he didn't lose v terribly n i felt tt he didn't lose. coz of his spirit. n his coach/father knew he's nt as good. n he jus kept telling him to do his best. n i could see tt he didn't give up. i hate to see ppl giving up on shots. like seeing e opponent is bout to tap at e net. den jus give up. i really hate tt. n little children, maybe still innocent, they really wun give up de. they jus try. even e 2 gals, grace n charmine they still swing their rackets to try to take e ball. this is e admirable spirit man.. n maybe children haf less worries n things to think bout. they jus go n play. tt boy tt i was mentioning. he fell quite a number of times as a result of his attempts to catch the net shots tt were rather beyond reach. tho he didn't really manage to catch e shots or get them over the net. bt it's his attempt tt really impressed me lo. yep..yep. n other than bmt stuff. today received a msg from my guitar teachers. they wanted to see me today at 215 regarding my intention to quit guitar. bt nt free. had to work. so i meeting them next mon after hist lesson. yep. n i jus didn't wan to like think bout how to ans e qn tt they might asked me.. as in i dun wan to formulate an ans n go there n regargitate. i wan to speak really frm e bottom of my heart. bt of coz. i can't stop myself frm thinkin bout it. so i more or less will be able to elaborate on my points. jus tt i didn't really go n choose e points tt i will use. bt anw. this is like OP like tt. i understand my project, my WR well. i was able to elaborate on content-based qn. like normal talking like tt. i noe my emotions n feelings well. i will be able to elaborate.. n this similarly. it's really emotions plus i've thot thru it alr. so hopefully they wun make it hard on me. or condemn or blacklist me. yep. n hope tt they can understand. it wasn't a rash decision. it might nt be a mature decision coz i decided to quit only coz i wanted to be happy. bt well. to me. as i've said many times b4. happy is really impt! yep. hee.haha. jus saw tt "215" tt i typed above. haha. reminded of the 215 yue1 ding4. haha. bt this isn't such a "auspicious" thing as compared to 215yue1 ding4. lol. hahahah.yep. n anw. my only fear is tt my image will be "shattered" in front of my teachers.. esp miss lim n miss oon. of coz i dun adore them as much as miss chia, mdm chia they all. n if they really think of me badly after this, i wun be very affected also la. bt still. i wan to be tt good gal u c. hahaha. i'm nt sayin my guitar teachers will go gossip n compain how "off" i'm. bt jus a bit scared tt will feel awkward in future seeing them. yep. bt ya. it's my life. it's my decision. i only haf myself to account to. heck wat they think! RITE? hee.yep. i msg-ed tong to tell her. coz i got wat stuff also will tell her de. as in this time round it's nt tell her coz i need someone to talk to. or like complain. bt jus wanted to let her noe. maybe it does sound like quite a big thing? haha. yep.. n since she has been w me thru my guitar days. maybe it will be good to tell her. i didn't wan to meet her coz she's really busy. actually she has alot of time. bt she has too many committments. n i mean unofficial. she has too many friends to care bout n she often has to spend time w them. end up making her struggle. i noe tt if i dun meet her, maybe her other friends will. n maybe even she go home she also will be doin "unproductive" stuff like watching tv/sleeping. bt at least she had tt private time. doing sth of her own. sth tt she might haf wanted to do bt coz too busy couldn't haf done. to me. i value all these time playin comp, sleeping, watching tv lo! i feel tt i'm too busy, tired wen i dun do all these things. i wld feel tt my life like quite sian.. i need tt private time. it jus makes me feel tt i've a happy life. haha. maybe superficial. haha. bt really. haha.yep. n for this period of time tt i haven't been talking to her. as in like long talks at subway.. haha. i realised tt many things actually once over.. really nt worth mentioning? haha. as in i passed tt emo-ness le. n some things. actually shld jus get pass them myself. cannot be so reliant on ppl.. n esp tong. n keep complaining to her. this is part of learning independence lo. yep.. bt of coz i wld still talk n complain to tong.haha. tho she's a busy schedule. i wld still like tt 4hours of her time occasionally.. haha. yep. n as long as there's gift stuff. i will be able to talk to her somehow de:P hehee. yep. n if we dun talk, think somehow will feel quite distant ba. like dunno wat's happening in each other's life like tt. haha. yep. n tt day we still said we mus try diff subways. haha. yep..haha. yep yep. tt's it. i wan to go play facebook le:P hahaha.kheng(:18/11/08
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