life after promos

Friday, October 3, 2008

hahahaha. life after promos is really shiok!! hahahaha. immediately after physics. zeni n i went to watch hua4 pi2.. haha. den i went home. watch tv. next day slp late. haha. go eat breakfasts, lunches n dinners w my siblings.. kee siao at home! hahahha. SO FUN!!!:D:D:D:D

haha. bt tt life has been over. after bout 1 week of fun! it's time to get back to work. bt honestly. it wun be for long. coz next mon n tues r PW days. jus like norm sch days. bt only working on PW. n goodness. it's gng to be whole day long. frm 8-5!!! haiz. bt nvm.. it's okay! PW is gng end soon. den next wed start lesson. lessons end officially by e next next wed! it's only bout a week. think it's all 4 returning of papers.. miss lim still say econs will start new chap for next year? hmm.. yep yep.. bt in b/w still got all e extra PW lessons like from 2pm onwards? goodness. dunno wat time can go home:S yep.. bt nvm. tt's life. haha. den 18oct is gng be nj open day. i hope i wun be involved! haiz. sounds quite bad n sad. bt honestly. if i will be involved, it will be regarding guitar.. so...... haha. yep. den after tt is all e pw dry run, tech run, den op exams, den END OF PW!!:D:D:D haha. feel bad coz today yx,aq, zeni n i were complaining non-stop bout our pw!:P haha. yep. bt it's gng end really soon. e last day of exams think is 7th oct. n i think i m scheduled for earlier de. haha. yep.. after end of pw. we gng sing k n haf fun!:D woots!:D

yep yep. hmm. jus a bit worried coz like nw. life is freak good. jus 2 more weeks of waking up early noe! haha. jus afraid tt next yr wen sch resumes, i wun be able to get used. so e few weeks b4 sch term starts again, mus train again. hehee.

yep. anw today's supposed to be games day.. bt e 4 of us jus ponned!! haha. n goodness. i suggested leaving immediately after assembly was over. haha. n we managed to sneak out. bt we all agreed tt if there's a next time, we will jus waste parent's letter n pon sch. if nt like today. so sneaky. n we were so afraid we wld kena caught, suspended n all e shit. hahaha. yep. so far nothing seems wrong yet. n i hope nothing will go wrong!:P haha. yep. n we went to haf mac breakfast n watch mama mia. it's aq who suggested it. den in e end she kept falling asleep! goodness. hahaha. i thot it's nt too bad. at first i didn't wan watch de. bt they didn't mind. so i had to follow lo. haha. nt bad nt bad:P haha.

yep yep.. tt day i kept thinking whether to quit guitar. n i think my final decision is nt to quit. coz tho i dun wan to go to an overseas uni(= dun need nice portfolio to get into local uni), i seriously dun wan to end up losing opportunities to get into e uni/course i wan jus simply coz i didn't haf tt basic CCA or stuff. n i was freak scared they wld like jus dismiss wat i've done(only guitar concert) this yr n my CCA records become zero. 2ndly is coz of principles. jus think tt it seriously reflects badly on my attitude towards life.. like dun like, den quit.. like wat my bro n sis say, teenagers nowadays can't take challenges at all. a bit den feel like giving up. haiz.. so ya lo.. n it's like i kept thinking how shld i say i wan to quit guitar to e teacher. yep. n face issue is def a prob. tho seriously nt a big one. wen i think bout all e happiness n joy i wld get if i aren't in guitar. yep..

so in e end i decided tt i will struggle on in it no matter how unhappy i m. unless they expel me(which i will gladly pack up n go:P) haha. yep. maybe some will think i m crazy.why care bout so many things. shld jus do things tt i like = def nt being in guitar:P haha. yep.. tt's wat i thot also wen i thot of quiting initially. coz tt's all bout ignoring others' views. jus do wat u like(as long as it doesn't harm others). quoting jie, "wo xi huan1 jiu4 hao3!"

haha. yep.. bt now i guess i haf to take up e challenge n nt give up so easily bah. at least if in future someone challenges me n says why m i preaching bout perserverence when i didn't even perservere thru e tough times in guitar, i will be speechless. at least if i "brave" through this, i can still look back n like praise myself for my resilience n perserverence. yep. man4 man4 chang2 lu4...... hmm......

yep yep. i told tong this wen i met up w her on tues.. haha. i hope n i think i will be able to do it bah. coz i was super certain wen i told her all these. n it's nt jus a rash decision or irresponsible talking, i really thot thru it n came to this decision.. tt time i told her i've all e support tt i need, frm good friends, new NJ friends, gift of reading ppl, family.. i've good friends frm all my other networks to show tt i m nt an outcast.. so being one in guitar isn't tt sad at all. i hope i was right. yep..

n another big reason was coz wen i told others i feel like/want to quit guitar, nobody gave their support openly. everyone was like "u sure?"/"why dun u try out somemore?"/"__(other CCAs) nt bad, we need ppl".. nobody actually came to me n told me to quit guitar.. meaning nobody really thinks tt for my own good, i shld quit guitar, so i assume tt's wat ppl think.. n i shall push myself on bah.. jus tt i will really rant alot n complain alot. do forgive. if u really think tt i shldn't be complainin, do tell me ya. maybe i can find inspirations n be able to ku3 zhong1 zuo4 le4 in guitar. yep yep.. bt do say in a more friendly n less reprimanding way. hehee..

yep..anw.. they changed practices to mon, wed n fri! wah lao! every alternate day need to go! haiz!!! n e worst thing is sch gate will be closed by 8. so needa walk main gate. haiz.. yep. hopefully tt retarded waimin will go some times tho i think it's a waste of her time.. n hopefully zijia will be w me. i really feel bad to be leaching on karen n shuling.. i hope i can lone my way out.. hmm. n i seriously hope.. for e remaining of this year, this is only guitar in e nov.. haiz. jus hope tt now till nov there wun be anymore guitar. haiz..

n next year.. i hope tt SYF can be as early as possible, tho i think it's more or less gng to be in april = i've to toil for 4 more months! best is they kick me out of SYF, then i wld be like cheating by keeping my promise of nt quiting guitar bt still, be able to be happy:P haha. if there r ppl who volunteer to be out of SYF, i guess i will follow suit. coz i went to think bout it, i think it's nt really tt sad to see ppl all busy for SYF n nationals n i can go home early. haha. coz ppl from clubs n societies can go tt also:P haha. yep. honestly. tho i m making an effort nt to be like affected by others, n living my own life, i think i m still nt doing it fully. i dun live for others, bt i've yet to nt live in the shadows of others:P haha. yep.. still trying:D

haha. yep. n if i m really out of SYF(n i do noe it early).. i might join Interact.. jus coz of their stupid comment tt they wan to like observe us n do a selection of members, n forced us to go 4 a camp tt clashes w gift of reading's fri session, i chose to nt join it anymore.. totally forgetting bout my intention of being a social worker n how this is a good "prelude" to a possible job option in e future.. haiz. bt ya.. if i'm in SYF, i def wun be able to cope w 2 CCAs. bt if i m out of it early, i m so gng to try out in Interact, coz yx n zeni are doing schemes regarding children! haha. n i so love working n playing w children!:P yep. see first bah:P

haha. kk. maybe it's time to surf other stuff. n hee. do PW:P haha.. it feels good to haf a comp tt is like working!:P hahaha.

kheng.
03-10-08
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P.S i made e font big so tt u guys wun haf such a hard time reading my posts:P

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